Keep on questioning. It is, I believe, the source of growth and understanding. I, too, have difficulties with the so-called gurus and iconic followers of Buddhism. I question how some of these people, who appear self-centred, are held up as cultural icons.
I also question the institutionalization of mindfulness. These cultural institutions create the conditions that ferment our anxiety and preach to us that mindfulness is the solution. Why I ask, don’t you address the source of the problem?